Mixed feelings.

Hi/Assalamualaikum!

I've been getting these mixed feelings in the past few months. If you think the assignment is sucks, let's see what you think once you have done with your studies.

Friendship,
Family,
Finance,
Health,
Work
and the list can go on if you want.

I remembered crying like hell. in the toilet. I was telling myself that everything is going to be ok. but holy shit life ain't easy. I feel like my life kena hentam without knowing the reason why. I don't know what I did til I feel like shit.

But somehow it turns out as a blessing. As if all the burden has gone. You know, I never like crying. Except for a sad story. Of course la that one I cry kan kalau tak cry you are not human la, hahaha.

You know what I told myself when I cried the other day? I asked myself why I never this, I never that. I blamed everyone around me for what happened to me. Gosh, I was so guilty but I told myself that so I can cry sepuas hati.

A lot of things happen in my life that make me cry till I felt numb and I JUST need to cry.

Are you the one like me yang suka pendam?
or maybe you have friend/family that listens to you?

Let me know in the comment section below.

That you for reading this nonsense post.

It's just because I don't know what to say on my first post after MIA for awhile, hehehe.

T h e M e m o r i e s.

As the time pass, 

I regret something, 

that I wish I can do it during 'it' happened;  

The Memories.

I keep telling myself, no. 

I keep convincing myself that I do not need any proof, 

or to be exact any photos or videos during special event happen.

Silly me.

I used to tell my friends that I do not need any of these photos or videos

as something to be kept as my personal valuable asset, 

because I believe that every memories are in my mind til death.

But now I realized, 

you CAN or you MAY forget people. 

The latter might be hurt a bit.

you MAY forget people.

I'm having the 'latter' situation now. 

I missed someone. 

Someone that I wish that I can tell everything to her. 

Yes, 'it' is her. 

She is my best friend I consider. 

No,

She was my best friend.

We might still be friend.

But it was not like before. 

Remembering all of the memories 

that silly me 'kept' in the mind. 

I have few, that I wish I can remember till I die.

But does she remember? 

the memories that we have together?

you MAY forget people.

I don't know if she totally forgets me 

It is true when people said, 

breaking your friendship is more hurt than 

breaking your relationship with your partner.

I don't know who shall I blame...

Is it my fault?

or

Is it her fault?

or

It is really just a fate.

I wish we can still be like before.

just being silly.

Sit down, eat, laugh like how we used to do.

I don't know if you feel the same just like me.

I don't know if you ever think about me anymore.

because;

I am thinking about you right now, yesterday. everyday.

It sucks that I am not totally moving on yet.

Have you?

Moving on from me?

Nothing but I wish you

to be healthy and happy.

You will always be in my memories

That I will keep

forever;

The Memories.

OOTD : Bow down to da queen!

Salam/hi!

OMG! I am so excited to be back on the track! Like, my life is finally cool down for awhile and I can update more stuff on my blog! Few months I have been MIA and now I am updating you guys with my current life! Hehehe

Nothing much special on this update but I just want to update more on my outfit!

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A post shared by Nita Su (@nitzforshort) on Oct 19, 2019 at 6:07am PDT

So I posted this yesterday and I thought I would like to tell you further about this outfit on my blog (since no one is going to read on IG obviously, lol) but it's okay! Eventhough I know not everyone is going to read this post, I just want to put it here as a memory so that I know... styling is not easy! 

It needs effort and time to gather the idea and there is so much risk to make it happen but Alhamdulillah, I made it eventually!

Ok, First of all when I got to know that the theme was Raja Sehari, I totally didn't expect that like... Do I have to find my partner?... now? Where can I find one?! On Tinder ah? Hahahaha I don't have boyfriend so tell me how should I rock this event? *cries*

So I was thinking to just not think about my +1 but instead I focus on what should I wear during this event.

I know that I will not going to look good on dress, so I decided to give a go on my suit. I googled and found few pictures that is attractive and I wish I could wear just like them!

I don't really love to waste some money for just a one day event so I decided to wear my suit and modified it a bit.

The veil that you see is actually from Shopee! Yup, it is from Shopee! 

I made it happen on THAT day. I rushed to take my parcel and straight away modified it at my rent house. I asked my friend to make it happen just like how I dream it to be. Fortunately she is good at doing this thing and voila, we made it happen! and I was SO SO happy to know it will become alive like how I dream it.

(white henna done by my friend)

Tbvh, I was mindlessly thinking how should I rock my veil. I don't want to put it on my hijab though because I know it's going to be heavy for me to drag it everywhere...

But then suddenly I remembered Kendall Jenner rocking it on a Chanel Haute Couture (on 2015? Pardon me if I was wrong)

source: Google

And yass gurl! Nita made it! I nailed the look!

I don't spend much money on this look.

The crown: from my sis

The flower: self-made

Hurt no one.

Salam/hi!

I am lost out of my radius now. I had a lot of things in my mind and I can't do anything about it. 

Have you ever feel it?

When you tried to express your sadness, gloomy, anxious feeling to anyone but ended up you didn't.

- Because you are so afraid of human expectation. 

I have to note in my mind, that I should always on ears when my friends need someone to talk to and not once in the lifetime I shall judge how they feel; childish nor nonsense.

Always tell them good things. 

- "It's okay"

It hurts when you have trust issue.

But at the same time, you are more alert now on things you can share to anyone.

Always know your limit.

Always know your weakness.

Always remind yourself to look surround you before you speak.

Think wisely.

Speak truthfully.

Hurt no one.

NITA SU x Blogger Contest!

Salam/Hi everyone!

I know this is like out-of-sudden news but I just want to let you know that... I finally launched my own company! Alhamdulillah, I've been receiving HUGE support from my family and friends.

Just in case you want to know a bit of my company;

We sell fashion accessories but we are currently focus more on jewelry and of course! NITA SU is MORE than just jewelry! If you would like to support me, please subscribe to the website, nita-su.com , thank you!

You guys have been reading my post ever since my DAY-1, that's the reason WHY I make this contest especially for you, my blogger friends!

So, how to enter?

Click this link: (https://nita-su.com/blogs/contest/nita-su-x-blogger-contest)

GOOD LUCK!

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